Walking the Talk

I can't upload current pictures on my laptop, so this picture is from July Yesterday I revisited the lavender fields of Warwick Furnace Farm in Glenmoore, Pennsylvania. I lent a helping hand to plant about forty five baby lavenders. I did this for so many reasons. But, most of all for peace of mind. I am not considering retirement any more. I am DOING it!!! April 28th is my last day at Vera Bradley. I have been working since age thirteen, this will be quite the adjustment. There are so many things I still want to accomplish in life. So, I am looking forward to the time. But, financially I feel like I am doomed. So, I am trying to focus on what can go right, instead of wrong. The "what ifs" are constantly taking over my brain. Planting the lavender was a great learning lesson for me. I realized after planting about three of the plants, I started thinking. What if I come back and my row didn't grow? What if the plant isn't planted deep enough, and they see it was the row I planted? I started looking at the others, and comparing what the others looked like compared to mine. Then when they started finishing a row, when I was only halfway down my row....forget it. I learned in drawing class we think mostly with our left side of brain. But, your right side is when you don't really think of what you are doing, it just gets done (driving is a good example). And, when I did that I was hard on myself, too. I realized I had taken my garden gloves off, and put my glasses on and had no idea I did that. So, again being hard on myself. So, with this realization, I know I have to get my peace of mind, back. It is going to be a lot of work. But, most of all I want to give myself credit for thinking about something I wanted to do AND DOING it. I also went with the mindset, even if it rained I had a rain jacket and was determined to follow through. And, most of all I want to approach retirement and getting older, positively. My body is determined to still do the hard things. I knew it would be a lot of getting up and down, and kneeling and I would be sore the next day. Good news is, I am not really sore at all. I also wanted to see my son play last night, and not be too tired. And, I did that, too! This is also part of a monthly goal for my "Rise and Write" class. Now, I will write a 900 word essay about my experience. The concentration will be on the owners of this slice of heaven on earth. My overall take on the day was I was treated to perfect weather. The sun was bright with a beautiful, soft, cooling breeze. There were birds chirping, and not one bug in sight. I found a few crystals, but forgot to take them. Another treat was seeing Katy, who was pregnant on my last visit. And, she planted lavender with her beautiful 7 month old baby girl Eloise on her back. Lavender doesn't peak until Mid-June but, the smell of it was in the air and very calming. Quote of the day: To plant a garden is to believe in tomorrow - Audrey Hepburn Song of the day: Working on a Dream Bruce Springsteen