Building a Nest

The picture above is from the apartment I just moved from. The little bathroom scene was in the bathroom. I had the exact bathroom set in my dollhouse growing up. I had so many signs that this is where I was meant to be. Also, I found white feathers as I vacumned on my way out the door. This stage of my life is so stunningly surprising, I have a hard time staying focused. But, when I opened my store more then twelve years ago, it was mostly to help me get through the empty nest stage of my life. This new way of life for me, I never saw coming. I am working a lot, so I try to get as much organizing in as possible, but also try to get the rest I need at the same time. Luckily the weather is SO horrible, I don't feel like I am missing much by not getting outside. Last night I went to sleep thinking of what I was going to do today. And, this morning I changed my mind to continue setting up my studio apartment. So, I really like this part of life, when you are in a new place to live. I was pretty excited to have curtains from my house to move here and get them up right away. I unpacked in the waking hours I wasn't working. But, this week I just couldn't do anymore. But, this morning I woke up with a couple of ideas of moving this and that to make my small space more functional. I get so frustrated with myself with the Artist in me. The one who collects and saves everything! But, during this process I am really trying to embrace that part of me at the same time. So, that's when I started turning the way I am thinking around. It was this morning, I decided to embrace that side of me. Hopefully I will get in a couple of hours of putting everything out of site, so I can start creating again. This is making me realize I am not an empty nester anymore. I am building a new nest for myself. And, I only have to think about me. This should be so easy, but it is really hard to not think of the future at the same time. But, thinking of myself as a freebird this morning, and that is the feeling I always wanted in life. And, here I am a freebird, looking out my window to a lake and another to the ocean. I will take deep breaths this morning and just be. Quote of the day: Everyone needs time to develop their dreams. An egg in the nest doesn't become a bird overnight. Lois Ehlert Song of the Day: Livin' Thing ELO