What does it mean to be a free spirit? It is the first thing I read behind a picture, when we started packing up my mom's room. It is what she wanted all of her children to be. And, happily I am glad she wanted us to be free spirits, and she felt we were. But, that is a question I ask myself. Am I really? No, I work, worry, doubt, and feel trapped too much to believe I am a free spirit. In reality it is a lot of work for me to feel like a free spirit. So, that has been my goal this year. I have used a monarch butterfly as my muse. I wore the costume visiting a fairy village in Conneticut and wearing it to work yesterday for Halloween. I also, use a fairy as a muse also, helping me through the moving I have endured three times this year. At the end of this week I should be all moved in. I have spent all of my days off from work, packing and carrying a car load of my books and art supplies to my new condo, since my vacation. This is heavy for me still, because I wish I didn't still have so many things. But, they are a part of me and my history. They are my treasures. I am working on making memory boxes of my loved ones, so it will be more joyful to pass on momentos of family memories. I want to be a treasure to remember. Not, a burden. So happy I kept some holiday decorations. And, I am really looking forward to unpacking and decorating. It is really nice to have today off. Going to Catholic School we always had the day off after Halloween for All Saints Day. It was really hard to mourn the dead, with all that candy. But, after the age of 12 I always wished for that day off, again. And, starting to work at that age and being in customer service I work most Sundays each week. So much for a free spirit, when I am working so much. But, there is light at the end of the tunnel. Part of my goal is to make these years golden. And, I believe that is through attitude, gratefulness and really seeing all the silver linings life brings. I love the golden days of Autumn and am looking forward to savoring each and every one. Happy November!
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