Take Time

Take Time.....Choose Joy......Appreciate Life....These are the my favorite things to do during the holidays. They are also the hardest to do this time of year. This year, especially, as I have my first day off in seven days. I also worked forty three hours last week in a mall. Which also means finding a parking space and walking very far to get back to my car. So what gets me through? Meditation, and I haven't had any good free ones in a long time. But, thankfully chopra came through with some good free ones for the holidays. Today was all about appreciation. I looked back for a good picture to share and couldn't help but realize 2012 was a really good year. But, at the same time it was a really bad year with the visit of Super Storm Sandy. But, I remember how appreciative I became of sunlight, without electricity. I shared a greeting card around Thanksgiving from my parents given to me for my high school graduation. And the cover was the quote picture on my blog today. And, out of all the quotes I own I like this one best. Sometimes you just have to take time for yourself. But, also I find if you find ways to appreciate those around you, that means a lot, also. So, I am looking forward to today to make some things for co-workers and thank you gifts. It's the first day of winter and time to celebrate the holiday season. I am going to make tomato sauce, and bake as many cookies and muffins as possible. I am grateful for all who read my written words. I probably won't blog as much next year. But, I do plan to take the last ten years and write a book. I was a big believer, but even more so today. I truely believe out of darkness comes a brighter light. Sometimes, we are truly tested, but looking back it shows it is true in so many ways. So, take time, choose joy, and appreciate life because better days are coming. Quote of the day: “Do anything, but let it produce joy.” - Walt Whitman Song of the day: We Are the World There comes a time When we heed a certain call When the world must come together as one There are people dying Oh, and it's time to lend a hand to life The greatest gift of all We can't go on Pretending day-by-day That someone, somewhere soon make a change We're all a part of God's great big family And the truth, you know, love is all we need We are the world We are the children We are the ones who make a brighter day, so let's start giving There's a choice we're making We're saving our own lives It's true we'll make a better day, just you and me Oh, send them your heart So they know that someone cares And their lives will be stronger and free As God has shown us by turning stones to bread And so we all must lend a helping hand We are the world We are the children We are the ones who make a brighter day, so let's start giving Oh, there's a choice we're making We're saving our own lives It's true we'll make a better day, just you and me When you're down and out, there seems no hope at all But if you just believe there's no way we can fall Well, well, well, well let us realize Oh, that a change can only come When we stand together as one, yeah, yeah, yeah We are the world We are the children We are the ones who make a brighter day, so let's start giving There's a choice we're making We're saving our own lives It's true we'll make a better day, just you and me We are the world We are the children We are the ones who make a brighter day, so let's start giving There's a choice we're making We're saving our own lives It's true we'll make a better day, just you and mee We are the world (are the world) We are the children (are the children) We are the ones who'll make a brighter day, so let's start giving (so let's start giving) There is a choice we're making We're saving our own lives It's true we'll make a better day, just you and me Oh, let me hear you! 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We are the world (dear God) (are the world) We are the children (are the children) We are the ones that make a brighter day so let's start giving (all right, can you hear what I'm saying?) There's a choice we're making, we're saving our own lives Source: LyricFind Songwriters: Lionel Richie / Michael Jackson

The Sun Rises Every Morning

My journey to joy took me to view many sunrises last year. I can say I truly saw the light. I believe in the good spirits looking to the light can bring. But, once the sun rose and became too bright for me to look at, I had to turn away. The bright light hurt so much. I guess it was a reflection of what I was going through. But, now with each morning I don't have the same desire to look at a sunrise. It gave me the feeling of God surrounding me and giving me a big hug. It gave me opportunities to meet people, and see goodness in people's hearts. And, most of all feel the love of God's creation. I am thankful I have the pictures, and hope to make a book some day with quotes and songs reflecting that feeling. The opportunities to find and feel hope, faith and love are all around us. And, a year later it is still filling my heart. As we are in the season of light, I hope and pray still for a world full of kindness. Quote of the Day: “What I know for sure is that every sunrise is like a new page, a chance to right ourselves and receive each day in all its glory. Each day is a wonder. ~ Oprah Winfrey Song of the Day: Dan Fogelberg To The Morning

New Chapters

What a great week! I had a good restful and reflective week full of love. I reached out to some friends on facebook and was happy to have some visits with friends. Attend a standing concert at night and NOT have to work all day on my feet. And, best of all I have some trips in mind for 2023. I am looking forward to 2023 to have some meaningful vacations involving visiting friends and family. And, the best will be a trip to Guatemala in Anitqua to meet and learn about the indegenous crafts of the women there. I have joined Trades of Hope again. And, will be sharing in my Journey to Joy Group again in 2023. My link is: https://tradesofhope.com/geralyngray. I am already blown away by your orders! I ended up in a few days becoming a qualified partner from the work I did last year and this week. I had no expectations and couldn't believe I earned $100 coupon in free product already. I was able to buy a gift for Ian and Kaylyn for free! I also will be recognized for some goals met for December! The bottom line is: it has given me a hopeful feeling approaching 2023. My picture above is a vision board I did for this year. I am happy to have made a lot of these visions come true. I am happy in my new home watching Hallmark movies, whenever I get the chance. Christmas is approaching fast, but so much less stress of having everything done. I don't want to have a tree this year. I am hoping to find the perfect one after Christmas. I have never bought a fake tree before, and was surprised how expensive they were. I have made some felt ornaments, and that is getting me in the spirt. I hope you all are enjoying this holiday season. Quote of the day: “Our hearts grow tender with childhood memories and love of kindred, and we are better throughout the year for having, in spirit, become a child again at Christmas-time.” –Laura Ingalls Wilder Song of the day: Brandi Carlile The Story

It's An Ian Thing

One of my favorite Christmas stories is about my son Ian during his freshman year at college. My daughter Kaylyn and son Ian are twins, who went to the same college in Philadelphia. It is the University of the Arts and the only four year Fine Art school, totally devoted to the Arts in the country. I remember hearing Ian on the phone, with excitement, telling us how he found out, after asking, there was not a holiday band or concert, and he wanted to start one. So, after a conversation with a professor, he put up a sign looking for band members. The next day he said he had sixteen members, all playing the instruments needed to make the music he had in mind. Next, was finding the charts and places to play. This is all while he is taking his first semester with a full load of credits. He also started working at DeBruno Brothers (an Italian market on Walnut street). The first show was to be at the first ever Christmas Market at City Hall. I believe the Market is now in the park across the way with the "LOVE" sculpture. I had read about the market and wanted to get there. Smells of chestnuts roasting, and Christmas goods from around the world were displayed in little houses, like we had seen at the eiffel tower the year before. It was amazing to see my son up there conducting a band playing beautiful Christmas music. The next thing you know, we hear, they stayed up one night and recorded songs. So, my daughter designed a logo, son made the cd, and I bought cd cards and envelopes. I was working at Paper Source at the time. I bought stickers to print with the logo to put on the cd cards. The next thing you know we had the best, most original Christmas cards we had ever sent out. We were getting calls from who recieved them, of how much they enjoyed listening to his music. He also has the music on You Tube I will share here. This year Ian surprised me again by playing the horns in Kevin Bacon (the actor) of the Bacon Brothers new song : "Philly Thing". I will be sharing that on social media today. But, it is so good to see ten years after graduating from UARTS, he still is connected in some way. And, this new music from Kevin Bacon is a great effort to help with supporting the music scene for young people in Philadelphia. A new good Christmas story for 2022! Quote of the Day: Do you want to know who you are? Don't ask. Act! Action will delineate and define you. -- Thomas Jefferson Song of the Day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nCbE7lmp8QM&t=17s Ian Gray's Big Band Christmas Music The picture of us (Myself, Ian and my best friend ever! Laura McFarland Meschio. We were at the Bruce Springsteen River Tour in Philadelphia in 2016. You can see the city of Philadelphia in the backround. Song of the Day: Bacon Brothers "Philly Thing" He is not in any of the video, but he did confirm he recorded for this and he is playing the trombone. His good friend Jay Davidson is on the list at the end (couldn't see Ian's name because it flashes quickly). Definitely has the philly sound of Ian on the horns, though!!!)

This Little Light Of Mine

This is a picture of me from last year at this time. I can't believe this is where I lived last winter. I still can't believe I lived there by myself from January until May. It is a good example of how I was able to let faith win over fear. But, life still is unfolding for me, and to be able to do things I would dream about, astounds me. I would pull my matching blue and white Kia Soul car each night facing the ocean. Witnessing picture perfect skies with moon rises, and think: "Yes, this is where I belong." But, at the same time realizing I had to find a place to settle in. I was able to give a rest to what faced me in 2022. But, as December fast approaches, I am deeply proud of myself, for where I have landed. And, hope to lead a more peaceful and restful life. I was feeling restless, until I faced moving in and out of the studio apartment. Then, I was left feeling totally empty and exhausted. Now, it's time to look forward with a refreshed look on life. I have been doing more reading then writing. And, going forward I probably won't be writing as much. I hope to organize what I have written, in some way to inspire others. I believe we each have our own stories. I never felt my story mattered much. Who am I to inspire others? Well, who am I not to inspire others? My very good friend, who attended college with me and we studied art together. We have our conversations as we are going to do something "artsy". I think it was when we were going from the sunflower field to the Princeton Museum of Art. We said we didn't feel like we had a voice. We devoted most of our life to our families, and loved being the creators of the life we imagined. But, now there is a certain amount of frustration in the thought of we have so much more we want to create to let our voices be heard. She is coming up from Florida this Christmas with her husband. We will be spending New Year's Eve together. I can't wait to see what we come up with. We are both working full time, now. And, both totally moved into our new homes. I love the thought of us setting some new goals of creating some art. She is a very talented painter and spent more then twenty years painting murals in people's homes. I think my problem is I don't like painting canvases, because I don't like them enough to hang in my own home. But, I have blank doors and thirty year old furniture. I can see me painting everything in sight with a folk art style. I just have to be brave, and can't wait to talk to her and have her input. I also would love her to paint something and leave her mark, while she is here. Today I am looking forward to putting away the last of everything I have moved here. And, then finish putting up the Christmas lights. Work has been very busy, and I am looking forward to Christmas! Quote of the day: Our Deepest Fear By Marianne Williamson Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness That most frightens us. We ask ourselves Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small Does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking So that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, As children do. We were born to make manifest The glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; It's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others. Note: This inspiring poem is taken from Marianne Williamson's book A Return to Love. Song of the day:Bruce Springsteen: This Little Light of Mine Live in Dublin

The Art of Living in the Present

This picture was taken about five years ago on one of our many cruises. I am thankful for all the vacations we went on. We took one to two cruises a year when we didn't have the store. I am used to always having something planned to look forward to. This year no vacation was ever planned. But, with my job I do get a good amount of time off. It is the most weekends I have ever worked (again the store I owned was in a great location and it was a great place to be in every weekend for five years)at a job, since waitressing 40 years ago. So, I am just getting through the day to day without much time to plan anything. I hope next year is different. But, I am thankful for all of my vacation memories and look forward to making new ones. But, part of my journey to joy is about how important it is to have a change of scenery every once in awhile. I love driving and looking out the car window. It's hard to be in a mall, but at least our store is fronted by windows, so I get to see a parade of people each day. Also, since I was near the beach last year, I really appreciated my walks. I had to stop bringing my phone, because I would probably take about twenty pictures each day to capture these amazing moments. I captured sunrises, sunsets, blooming flowers, dolphins, oyster catchers, sandpipers, whale's feeding, rainbows,and concerts. But, at the end of the day I still ask myself "why?". I will definitely figure it out, someday. I just have to put it together one day in some kind of order. So, I am finishing, now, what I started to write yesterday. It was a crazy day, but the first whole day I spent in my new home. I was awaiting a new sofa and loveseat. It was due to arrive from 7:30am-10am. They arrived after 4pm, along with an email at 12:30 that the order was cancelled. Many robo calls and texts later, I was able to talk to a human being. It finally worked out. I was able to fully relax for the first time, in a very long time. So, this brings me to one of the hardest things to do. Not expect anything, and to live in serenity. So, yesterday gave me the time to start putting away and organizing. Some things brought up emotions, and I had enough time to let that happen and flow. I found two things that gave me the most comfort. I hung them up in prominent places, to read from time to time. They are the Serenity Prayer, which was the first thing I hung at my first house on Brielle Road in Manasquan. The other was a cross stitch given to me by my Aunt when we bought our first house. She was an avid sewer. She was a wonderful person, my father's sister. We went to the Folk Art Museum in New York together. And, we were able to go to an National Quilt show, also. Each quilt represented each of the states, and were very artistic reflecting where the makers were from. So, it ended up a difficult day, but I got through it. And, this morning I think I have a plan to get the last of my things put away. So, I think to live and appreciate the present, I can not just forget the past. It is to have an appreciation and, honestly some sorrow. But, when I really look at the past. I can honestly say if there was a struggle, there always was a silver lining. I am looking forward to new memories. I am setting up creative and cozy corners. I can't wait to get to do some creating, and decorating for the holidays. Quote of the Day: The Serenity Prayer: God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. Song of the Day: Elvis Costello: Peace Love and Understanding

The Art of Creating Calm

How to find calm in this current chaotic conundrum? These times of uncertainty, how do we keep hopeful? When our lives are constantly changing, how do we find the faith? And, when things beyond our control, make us feel unloved? I say we, because personally I may be going through some changes, but during this time in history everyone globally is, also. For, me life is whizzing by too fast to think about it. But, I honestly am amazed in my resilliance. Most of all finding the calm in the storm. So, I am taking the time to think about it in the morning, and writing about it. Because, it does seem to help others. And, what I do, comes natural. And, in the end, I think that is the answer. Don't get me wrong, I am scrolling and surfing the internet daily for inspiration and answers to my own conundrum. I love the word even, conundrum. But, basically I am looking for answers, and really I have all the answers inside me. I just have to trust myself. And, that is where the deep soul searching comes in. Well, with real life we don't all have the time for that. We are just all trying to keep our head above water. And, so what do we do naturally to stay afloat? We keep swimming or treading water. No one else knows your inner turmoil. If you are lucky, you do. I am lucky, I have empathetic friends. But, naturally we all find our way to hold our head up high. I call it survival mode. Because, each day, naturally that is what we are doing. I love the English saying: "Keep Calm and Carry On". There were signs made up for this and hung all over England after World War II. I sold items like this in my store, and the first day after Sandy I sold out of all of them. They were by local Artists who were licensed by Peter Pauper and they read " Keep Calm and have a cupcake" Their names are Jen and Aaron and there business is: "Everyday is a Holiday". So, anyway I think naturally we create our own calm. But, I also think we create our own choas. So, be careful how you calm yourself. Because, if it is with food, it can become unhealthy. I DO comfort myself with food. I was told once, this is ok, because it is needed to survive. It is better then drugs or alcohol. But, not really. It is not healthy. Sugar can give you a high, but too much of it can be a bad thing. So, looking back I can see when I was treading water the most, I became the heaviest. And, this is the time I was working the most. As women, how do we find the balance? In all my sixty-some years, I have not found it. I am always juggling or forgetting something, to not really feel relaxed. I constantly have my guard up. When, I finally feel calm, I think something is going to happen to wreck it. So, slowly I am realizing all of this. I am taking healthy action to gather my stregnth. And, the biggest thing I can do is recognize my stregnth. I am proud of myself. But, along with that is my biggest weakness is, I HATE to ask for help. And, when you work in management, that is the name of the game. But, I find stregnth in relying on myself, and myself only. I can not, and will not control others. And, that is how I find the calm. Knowing the difference of what I can control and what I can not. So, this week, I want to create reels in instagram of my most relaxing, calming days I've had this year. Along with my favorite music, afterall that is what really calms me, too. My biggest surprise was my most calm day was in New York City. So, we can find the calm in the chaos. Just surround yourself with good people, go to places you have never been to before, and let someone else be in control. And, to end this all, I have a belief system of I am not really in control of anything...God is in control of everything. Hence, my mom's bumper sticker: Let Go Let God

Counting My Blessings

This picture was taken in January of 2022. I was approaching the new year of 2022 with faith, hope and love. These were words that all have new meaning for me, this year. But, struggling through, I am able to see where those words come in to be able to see a future, positively. Without those three words in your life, you are stuck. The last thing I want, ever, is to feel stuck. I want to continually feel I am learning and moving forward in my journey. And, this year I am going to make a right turn and get right back on my journey to joy. It is alright for me to look back, from time to time. But, it is most important for me to look forward and onward. I have some ideas of what my journey to joy will look like. And, I have a month and a half to come up with a plan. I hope to pick a picture from each month in 2022, to tell a story of what I am most thankful for this year. I am thankful for people, places and things. People who have listened to me, places that have comforted me and my things. Oh God, my things. What a guilt trip my things give me! But, as I unpack each and everything I have carried along the way, I am thankful for the stories they tell. An example, is just finding a bookmark. But, it tells me something I really need to hear at the moment. Or a picture of me with my brother and cousin, Babs. They are both gone now, but the picture was from when I first opened my shop on Cookman in Asbury Park. I don't feel as sad when I look at all the pictures, now. The job of going through them is overwhelming. But, they are all in one place, and I have room to organize them all, now. My family's history is up to me to tell it's story. I want my children's memories to be something they want to remember, but most of all treasure. This was a lot of responsibility to put on me, during a time I was still grieving the loss of my mom. But, some how, having all this loss at once. It is making me want to move on quickly. Fall, is a time of loss as we watch the trees become barren. But, we know keeping faith, hope and love. Spring will be here before we know it, with the rebirth of new fresh leaves. And, in abundance.....I want the feeling of abundance of love, again. Love is a feeling and it is all around me, even if I am physically alone. Quote of the day: "Don't Cry Because it is over. Smile because it happened" Dr. Seuss Song of the day: Better Days Southside Johnny and the Asbury Jukes

Free Spirit

What does it mean to be a free spirit? It is the first thing I read behind a picture, when we started packing up my mom's room. It is what she wanted all of her children to be. And, happily I am glad she wanted us to be free spirits, and she felt we were. But, that is a question I ask myself. Am I really? No, I work, worry, doubt, and feel trapped too much to believe I am a free spirit. In reality it is a lot of work for me to feel like a free spirit. So, that has been my goal this year. I have used a monarch butterfly as my muse. I wore the costume visiting a fairy village in Conneticut and wearing it to work yesterday for Halloween. I also, use a fairy as a muse also, helping me through the moving I have endured three times this year. At the end of this week I should be all moved in. I have spent all of my days off from work, packing and carrying a car load of my books and art supplies to my new condo, since my vacation. This is heavy for me still, because I wish I didn't still have so many things. But, they are a part of me and my history. They are my treasures. I am working on making memory boxes of my loved ones, so it will be more joyful to pass on momentos of family memories. I want to be a treasure to remember. Not, a burden. So happy I kept some holiday decorations. And, I am really looking forward to unpacking and decorating. It is really nice to have today off. Going to Catholic School we always had the day off after Halloween for All Saints Day. It was really hard to mourn the dead, with all that candy. But, after the age of 12 I always wished for that day off, again. And, starting to work at that age and being in customer service I work most Sundays each week. So much for a free spirit, when I am working so much. But, there is light at the end of the tunnel. Part of my goal is to make these years golden. And, I believe that is through attitude, gratefulness and really seeing all the silver linings life brings. I love the golden days of Autumn and am looking forward to savoring each and every one. Happy November!

Just Believe

I have been watching Maria Shriver's videos on radical aging. I am grateful to a facebook friend who shared it. And, I am loving it! It is helping me with a lot of answers and solutions to excactly what I am feeling and questioning. So, the bottom line is life is a mystery. But, it is our belief system that is our guide through life. And, it is ultimately up to us to get through this life with hope, faith and most of all love. Love is key. As, we are approaching the holidays it is important to look forward to making new memories. And, not feeling like the best memories are in the past. I remember feeling this way approaching and during the holidays at the empty nest time in my life. This is when I opened my store, and the holiday memories created in Convention Hall were nothing like I could ever imagined. So, who knows what is in store for me in the future. I do know having a grandson makes me feel love in a whole new way. Having a new home and creating a cozy environment is helping me feel optimistic, too. Working today on Halloween really gets me in the spirit of the holiday. I haven't had one trick or treater visit where I have lived for twelve years! So, at the store we will have hundreds! And, we are ready. I hope to share some live video of the fun today. Hope you have a Happy Halloween! Quote of the day: You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life. Steve Jobs Song of the day: The Promised Land Bruce Springsteen I need two today!!! Badlands by Bruce Springsteen

Still Curious

Still wondering.....questioning.....with a mind full of thoughts,if I am moving forward? I wonder if a year is long enough to know if I should feel any differently. I, of course, am granting myself more time to move through this muddy situation. But, I am getting tired of it all. I want and invite all the feelings I am feeling. But, I can't understand how day in and day out, I can't quiet all of the memories or fear of the future. So, I took some time off of writing and social media to see if it would help. It really didn't. I still scroll to see if I will read the right quote, linger on an ispiring place to travel or listen to a video to help me cope. I am so glad I could take a vacation and not think about work or moving. But, just one week back to work and packing on my days off and time is flying by. I am grateful each day, I know I am capable of doing all of this. I am hoping I can give myself an answer sometime soon. I know most of all, I want my security back. Now, I just need to feel secure. I have to stop the worst case scenario way of thinking. I have to be prepared in case something happens to my job, my car, my teeth, my overall health, and learn how to relax again. My attention span has made me not even able to focus on a tv show without picking up the computer or phone. I am looking for something. I guess I am looking for answers. And, the conclusion to that is what I learned when my life changed and I moved out of my home a year ago. Life is a mystery. So, yes be curious, but just live every day and enjoy it. I really have approached all of this with the least amount of stress as possible. And, I think what I was learning yesterday, as I got more and more stressed, was scrolling on my phone and watching tv relaxes me. So, what did I do I bought a tv and tried to do the cable myself. It didn't work, because there was a cable missing. So, on my way to Staples I try to get the cable while I try to get something printed. Then the amount of stress to just put in a order for printing, forces me to just print it at home (at my own cost). And, then I went to get bubble wrap to make packing easier. I pick out the least expensive and it rings up double the cost. So, I walked out of Staple's empty handed. This morning I am approaching this all with curiosity. What can I do to help myself. And, the bottom line is for me to just get through this week, and do as much as possible to stay stress free. Write down my thoughts, and go from here. Hang on, but let go! Celebrate all the wins I have had in this year. And, forget about the rest.......but, right now I realize my biggest fear is forgetting. So, the struggle is real, and this time I might have to think about making some changes in my life. I am too hard on myself. But, I have to figure out how to simplify it for next year. Because, I never felt I have enough time. I am always in a hurry. So much so, it takes a great effort NOT to forget to eat. So, maybe it is about time I make another change in how I spend my time.

Angel Eyes

I had such a great vacation. It started with a fundraiser for Little Steven's Teach Rock fundraiser at the Stone Pony. And, ended at the Bethesda fountain in Central Park during a Photo Walk. I chose the title Angel Eyes because of a song Little Steven wrote. It was one of the first songs performed by Southside Johnny and the Asbury Jukes at their Labor Day Show at the Stone Pony. The next day after visiting Central Park I saw a post that the Little Steven Disciples of Soul first album was celebrating it's 40th Anniversary. And, the photos for the album cover were taken at the very spot this picture was taken. And, then I wondered if the song was written about the Fountain. But, I don't think it was. I really needed this vacation and was happy to have the time to spend in Conneticut with my neices. The drive home from Conneticut ended up very stressful waiting in traffic for two hours to go three miles on an empty tank of gas! But, I made it off the bridge and to Little Ferry to fill my tank. Also, very happy there was a very convenient White Castle to calm my nerves. But, the best part was seeing the New York skyline at sunset. All the buildings were glowing in silver. And, there are some very tall slim buildings that popped up quickly. I kept on wondering when they were finished and what they were for. I was so surprised when we landed at Columbus Circle on Sunday for the photo walk it was exactly where the new buildings are. The Plaza Hotel was in front of them and now seems so small. Today I think I will share some of my favorite pictures from the photo walk with some music. I love vacations to look forward to and to look back at the great memories created.

Rising Up

This picture says a lot. To say a picture is worth a thousand words is an understatement. This one is worth a million or more. But, it shows a lot of determination on my part. It was taken on the porch of where we stayed in Taxco, Mexico. It was the last family trip we ever took. And, the first trip we took out of the country. I was thirteen, my sister was sixteen and my brother was seventeen. It meant a lot to my father to have this trip with us. My mother not so much. My dad was buying a lot of onyx for his business so he was happy. My sister and I were on the search the whole time for perfect embroidered shirts and never found them. The altitude didn't agree with my brother, and he kept on getting bloody noses. We went to Mexico City, Taxco and Acalpulco. It had a big impact on my attitude as you can see. I knew I was being raised in a beautiful town. But, Mexico was so different as far as housing. It made me appreciate the fact our home was on a block with grass, gardens and a sidewalk to ride my bike. It also was a time I wasn't eating much, and every time I would start to eat something. My mom would say something like: I bet that burger is from the bullfight we saw yesterday or the chicken was from an iguana we just saw crawling on a nearby dirt road. It was a time for me to grow up, and it really made me appreciate the life I had. The hardest part of the trip was seeing all the needy begging for you to buy gum, or throw them money to dive into the water for. It was heartbreaking. It is ironic we ended up in Mexico about five years ago to have our last trip as a family. And, I ended up appreciating the vendors more. Instead of feeling sorry for them, I really appreciated their handwork to make a living. Lately, I have been studying the different regions and what they are known for making. I also appreciated their devotion to God. Most churches had a big square in front. And, you would see patrons on their knees praying with rosaries. And, they would approach the church while still kneeling. I saw funeral marches where they carried candles and let the hot wax drip down their hands. I saw a lot of suffering of humanity. But, at the same time there were so many bright colors on clothing, and on their arts and crafts. I remember my mom really wanting to go to one place in particular. It was called Xochimilco. I found a picture she took and have kept it out. It is a river where they have boat rides and the boats were covered in flowers. But, when she walked up she was so disappointed. Because, it wasn't the bright colors she had expected. She also bought a clay pot she fell in love with at the airport. My dad tried to talk her out of buying it. She bought it and proudly held in on her lap all the way home on the airplane. She held it all the way home in the car, and I believe that was the time we rode home from Newark in a terrible ice storm. And, as she carried it into the house, the clay pot broke to pieces on the stairs. Too many piece to glue back together. She entered the house with her head down in defeat, and it was during that time, not much in life made her look up. I was taking the time to feel all the feels last year when I was at home for nine months. I wanted to sort through paper work and pictures, and it was all too hard. So, as I am approaching moving again. I am sorting, shredding and going through a lot. And, it has been easier for me. They call when your children our grown an empty nest. I knew I would have a hard time. So, that is when I also had a job loss, and opened my store. It did help to fill that void. So, there is no name of what I have been going through. But, on my own I came up with my journey to joy. And, there wasn't much joy going through a divorce. But, there is a ton of joy, when you have a grandchild, find a purpose, and approach life with curiosity. Free as a butterfly. And, this is the time of year butterflies migrate to Mexico. I think I will take this year to do more research places to visit in Mexico. I would love to see Frida's blue house in Mexico City, butterfly sanctuaries, and studios where clay manger (nativity) scenes were made. I had quite a collection from visits to Mexico. But, they have been lost for a long time. P.S. forward to..... December 9,2022 I didn't share this post, so now I want to add to it. I have settled into my new place. I am getting more rest, but still have bouts of sleepless nights. I am realizing I really need a vacation to look forward to, and have been struggling to find one that is right for me. Two days ago I opened my computer and Trades of Hope which I had joined in May 2020 is offering a trip to Guatemala in August, 2023. It is exactly what I want and need. I want to visit places and meet people who are making a living creating indigenous crafts. And, Guatemala weaving, embroidery and ceramics are a lot like Mexico. But, learning about how each of the regions create different stories of family history in their work. I have been reading so much about it, and watching videos. This is exactly what I want to do. So, I signed up for Trades of Hope, and so thankful to have had an order already after posting. Thank you Patty! I will try to keep my sharing on my Journey to Joy page. I will have live videos, some parties, and pop up shops. Here is the link for my shop. What I love is it is available anytime to purchase on. You don't have to wait for a party. But, if you are interested in earning free products, please let me know. Quote of the day: "Feet, what do I need you for when I have wings to fly?" Frida Kahlo Song of the day: The Family Madrigal from Encanto

Wishes

I believe in wishes coming true. And, I really appreciate my nieces making birthday wishes come true for me. And, at lunch with them (which was outstanding) realizing how lucky my life is. Because. my family and those I was surrounded with most of my life wanted to make my wishes come true. I have lived a very charmed life. Owning and decorating three homes. And, this year I get to decorate my fourth. It is my favorite thing to do creatively. I am inspired by so much this year, it is hard to focus on color choices. But, I always stay conservative, to keep the resale value. I loved having a dollhouse, and seeing how when I decorated my house, that is what came through. So, it was a great day seeing the minature world of fairies this year at the Florence Griswold Museum. I got my Halloween costume early this year. I walked the whole exhibit as a butterfly. It was silly and super fun. My nieces humored me with "your wish is my command" attitudes. I demanded a lot of photographs, and was so happy they obliged. This year also had butterflys and fairy villages inspired by different artists. This butterfly (I am pictured with) was inspired by Yayoi Yayoi Kusauma. My goal is to see one of her installations in person. I missed out a couple of times in the last few years. I admire her story. I also admire her working harder then ever, and she is in her 90's. She has an amazing imagination full of polka dots, and we are lucky she is still sharing it with the world. Quote of the day: “Because my mother was so vehemently against my becoming an artist, I became emotionally unstable and suffered a nervous breakdown. It was around this time, or in my later teens, that I began to receive psychiatric treatment. By translating hallucinations and fear of hallucinations into paintings, I have been trying to cure my disease.” Yayoi Kusama Song of the day: Wishes from Walt Disney World fireworks display

Big News: Hippie Wanna Be turns 63

It's my birthday! And, I am happy! The last year has been like peeling an onion. I experienced ups and downs and all arounds. But, last year on my birthday was my first sunrise I ever witnessed. And, it didn't happen until I was 62. It was a euphoric experience, that actually stunned me. It was so exciting to see the sun appear and filled my body with warmth and almost a feeling of electrical charges going through me. As I was just pushed out of my home, because of a divorce, this good feeling was surprising to me. I had been in my place for 13 days, and could't even raise the blinds to let the light in. The mediation was progressing. But, after thirty nine years of marriage I was angry.....really angry. So, this feeling was a complete surprise. I talked to my sister that day. And, I tried to process some feelings I had with anger from the way I grew up. I said I grew up too fast didn't I? I was the baby of the family. But, I was determined to be independent and grown up at about the age of eight. My mom had also went on strike that year. So, making sure my blouse for school was ironed, badges put on my girl scout sash, white gloves for inspection (girl scouts) were clean, shoes were polished, walked home from school and made my peanut butter sandwich each day, and worked for my dad on weekends. On my fourteenth birthday my mom asked me what I wanted. I said a new bed with linens I pick out. And, she said that is too expensive. We went back and forth and I said it was nice having a bunk bed for friends to sleep over, but I wanted a real mattress with a box spring, so I could sleep better. She agreed as long as I paid for half. So, we went to Sears and I picked everything out. I was a chambermaid at the Warren Hotel and saved up my money. When I was picking out things from my mom's apartment to keep before she went to live in continuing care, I found the pillowcase I paid half for forty some years ago. I will be putting it on my pillow when I move to my new place in a few weeks. I hope I sleep like a baby. This morning I awoke at 4:12 (my old house number in Spring Lake). So, I have been processing my past, but not living in it. And, this is my biggest triumph, because I am getting to the point, where I am over it. I just want to move forward, and live happily ever after. And, in a years time, I am well on my way! Quote of the day: “It isn't for the moment you are struck that you need courage, but for the long uphill climb back to sanity and faith and security.” ― Anne Morrow Lindbergh Song of the day: Surprise Surprise Bruce Springsteen The picture is a self portrait I did in the beginning of 2021. I found a picture Kaylyn had cut for her Senior Thesis, she did not use. It is so important now, because of what I went through in 2021......struggling with the loss of my mom, loss of a job I loved, isolation because of covid, a husband who was not talking to me, and then I was cracked open like an egg when I found out the day after Father's Day my husband was cheating on me with a married woman. I love this quote but this is no uphill battle any more for me. It is such a better feeling of walking downhill. So much easier to carry everything down the stairs now. Such a better feeling, once I move I don't have to move again. I am feeling brighter and lighter with each day!

The Memory Keeper

I took this picture while my hair was still wet before I walked to Sea Hear Now. Today is my first real FREE day in I don't know how long. And, my mind is full of thoughts as I try to figure out how to spend it. I have slowed down bringing things to my new condo, because I am pulling up the carpet to put in new vinyl flooring. It is my birthday week. I have been going through my mom's pictures. And, my brother's birthday was the 9th, sister's the 10th, and my mom's was the 11th. I also have good friends who share my mom's birthday, I should have called. I should have called my sister, because she has been calling me every Tuesday for a year. I told her last week I would call her this week, because I didn't get a card in the mail. Oh gosh, then all the negative thoughts of guilt come rolling in. I also am still in a turmoil in all the stuff I still have. So, as I approach my birthday tomorrow, I am going to try to be easy on myself. I have a fun couple days planned. And, I really enjoyed the last few days fitting a lunch out yesterday. I was joined by a friend and I had the Great Pumpkin pancakes at Turning Point. It was free from joining thier site. I can't wait to have the leftovers today. It was so good, and the pumpkin chai was delightful. I hope to take a walk on the beach today, and do some artwork. It just is really nice, to not have to move or pack anything. I am really realizing how long of a loss it was for my mom and brother. When you have relatives who have alzhiemers and dementia, you lose them way before they die. And, your relationship changes as they change. To say the last ten years has been hard would be an understatement. I just have to learn how to move on and not think of it so much. It does feel good to move forward. But, the birthday thing with my family, all but my dad, born in the same week has always been a challenge. We never really celebrated all together as a family. And, it really becomes sad, when I think of it too much. So, onward and focusing on celebrating my birthday with my nieces tomorrow.

The Good Path

Yesterday morning I had someone come to measure for new floors. And, then the next thing I know I am invited to the Red Gables. A three day event with four chefs cooking on open fires, live music on the beautiful Navensink river. The weather was spectacular and it was so special to be on a place on earth that was perfect in every way. It even had an art display! I can't wait to share all the pictures and videos in my stories. I was there early enough to grab a rocking chair by a fire pit. I was quickly joined by a woman, who came to see the Ocean Avenue Stompers. She lived nearby and her husband loves the band. She did too! We chatted the day away, and she ended up growing up in area I did. I also met the owner of the property and learned so much about the history. I was definitly spending the day on sacred land. A perfect place to be on a perfect day. I listened to the best music, ate scrumptios food, drank ice cold cocktails out of a can, walked a trail with the leaves starting to change, and ended the night with the full moon framed by giant trees. My walk to the car was pitch black, but when I looked up I saw an art studio. I mean I was on sensory overload. What a day and totally unexpected. I am grateful for the path I am on, and everyday leading me to feel pure joy again.

Buy the Beach Chair

I am reflecting on a lot this vacation week. And, there are so many things to be thankful for. First, I am very motivated and getting a lot done! Second, I am having fun! So great to have little reunions with friends. And, to see some great live music. Yesterday, I couldn't make a decision because the ticket was pricey for a fundraiser for Teach Rock. An organization started by Steven Van Zandt to raise money for teaching rock music in classes. To help put the A (Arts) in the STEM learning system to make it into STEAM to encourage more children to graduate from high school. It was great to see him so happy and play at the Pony, which he said he had not seen the inside of for twenty five years. I loved waking up this morning and feeling so young and alive. I started the day going through old pictures, and I kind of started feeling down. So, many of my pictures are filled with family members and friends that are gone now. So, I really have to do the hard task of organizing them all. I really appreciate I can face that now. Because, I haven't been able to for years. I am focusing on the positive. So, I am happy I bought the ticket yesterday. And, I am happy I bought a beach chair that is called an Adult beach chair this summer. For, years I have been having trouble getting out of a beach chair. And, when I am with someone, they will offer to help me out. So, since most of the time I am going alone, I decided to buy a chair that is higher off the ground. The picture of me was taken when I was with my waitress friends who I worked with in the late 70's and early 80's. It was someone elses chair and it came with the offer of helping me out LOL. The whole point of this post is how young I feel, and how reunited with friends is one of the best things to do to lift your spirits. And, live music is the best, too. And, also just spend the money every once in awhile to feel good. It is worth it!!! Looking forward to sharing more of my adventures this week!

Do What You Wanna Do

I am thinking a lot about becoming a hippie. That is my goal. Free to be me! As I still work a lot,my mission has not been accomplished.....yet! But, I am getting there. When I retire, I think it is when it will become official. I am giggling to myself as I am writing this. But, if it has to be a goal, so be it. I was on my way, when I had my store. I remember saying to my mom when I was young : "Time is about money, but money isn't about time." I am pretty mad at myself, for the situation I am in at retirement age. And, thinking a lot about what is most important during this time in my life. Time or Money??? For now, it is about the friends, family and music that gets me through life. I definitely feel I have traveled enough in my lifetime. I was going to take a short vacation in October. But, I am moving instead. But, it will be a really good November, to be settled in my new home. And, next year I will have more of a relaxed lifestyle, where I can plan a vacation, better. This morning I read Mama Cass got a star in Hollywood yesterday. That is what started my imagaination going. Growing up in the 60's she was the ultimate hippie. And, she left a legacy of that lifestyle, even if she passed away at a young age. Not, only was she a talented singer, she had style. She moved and sang with confidence. And, she was great at connecting musicians. Crosby, Stills and Nash was her suggestion. So, I will share a quote from her and a song. Peace. Love and Rock and Roll forever! Quote of the day: words to a song: “Make Your Own Kind Of Music: Cass Elliot she did at the age of 33 Nobody can tell you There's only one song worth singing They may try and sell you Cause it hangs them up to see someone like you But you've gotta make your own kind of music Sing your own special song Make your own kind of music Even if nobody else sings along You're gonna be nowhere The loneliest kind of lonely It may be rough going Just to do your thing's the hardest thing to do But you've gotta make your own kind of music Sing your own special song Make your own kind of music Even if nobody else sings along So if you cannot take my hand And if you must be going I will understand You've gotta make your own kind of music Sing your own special song Make your own kind of music Even if nobody else sings along You've gotta make your own kind of music Sing your own special song Make your own kind of music” ― Mama Cass Song of the day: Do What You Wanna Do The Mamas and the Papas

Happiness is in Your Own Backyard

Sometimes I search so long for something, and it is right here in front of my face. I talk about my journey to joy, which is also a search for happiness. I try to plan out everything, lately, so it is the least amount of stress on my mind and body. Yesterday, was nothing I planned for. But, it produced a lot of change. Change is good. But, unplanned it can be bad. But, now I just have to work through it. And, I think I am good with it. The day started with a difficult conversation with my landlord. But, ended up, if I was going to leave the lease, The sooner I did it the better. This helps me out considerably. I am just not ready to move again, yet. I thought! I just expressed how much time I had off this month. So, it really a good time to do this. I also did not want to do any moving in the rain. But, now I feel differently, as it is better then hot, humid and blistering sunshine. And, cold weather is coming, ice and snow would be the worse to move in. So, I will be spending my days packing. I also, spent time with my cousin, who I rarely saw in my lifetime. But, we have our grandparents, in common. And, it was so nice to share stories of how much they meant to us. We also were visited by deer, foxes, squirrels, cardinals on a birdbath and a racoon. I had to show him the mural Kaylyn painted. I was really worried for him. After losing his wife and being married about forty years, and had been the home caretaker for the last four years. Also, knowing he was the only one left in his family, as his sister just died last year. But, imagining looking outside to see the good things around him. He also had a lot of work done in his house, to make it comfortable for his wife. We talked for six hours straight, and couldn't believe what time it was when I left. But, I am happy he is in a good place in life. I also have been avoiding the news for months. This morning I read more about the devastation in Florida. I am shocked by the amount of lives lossed. Lots of prayers this week for all who have suffered losses. Quote of the day: “Happiness is like a butterfly, the more you chase it, the more it will evade you, but if you notice the other things around you, it will gently come and sit on your shoulder.” ― Henry David Thoreau Song of the day: YES! I love you tube when it suggests something. LOOK what happened last night. Brandon and Bruce TWO of my favorites The Killers and Bruce Springsteen Born To Run

Reflections on the first day of Rocktober

I love taking pictures with my reflection. I was trying to find a picture on my computer to share, because my phone won't upload the ones I wanted to use today. This picture was fun, and it was taken exactly a year ago. I am looking forward to October! I just counted how many days off I have, and it is practically half of the whole month. I was trying to find something fun to do today. Not really used to having a Saturday off with nothing planned. But, my cousin texted me and his wife just passed. My mother's side of the family is very small, because both her parents were only children. So, I will take a ride to Pennsylvania to spend some time with him today. One of the first things I have planned is to get the rest of any furniture and boxes out of my old address. Finally, getting addresses changed, etc. It feels so much better, then when I moved here. Because, I knew when I came here, I am going to have to move it all over again. Also, this was all such a shock and rush in the first place. It is much better taking it slow. Working full time at my age is not so easy. I was working a lot of nights, and honestly, I was having a hard time concentrating after 7pm. But, I do have great managed time off, and really happy October is the month I will take a lot of it. I was planning a quick get away. But, in the long run, it is probably more trouble (and $) then is worth. I will try to plan some fun little day trips. Would love to get to an art museum or two. I am still collaging the closet at the new place, and I am really enjoying that. Hope to share some fun in my stories! Happy ROCKtober!!!! Oh, new music from Bruuuuce. YAY. Got into my car yesterday, and Sirius year subscription ended. Ugh! Quote of the day: L. M. Montgomery's book Anne of Green Gables. "I'm so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers." Song of the Day: New Bruce Soul Album "Only the Strong Survive!" Do I Love You

Only the Creative Survive

Upon entering Sea Hear Now, a weekend long music festival in Asbury Park, I was greeted by this Artist (pictured) each day. I will share in my stories the beauty of his music. It is heard as you enter what was once known as the Casino building from Asbury Park's better days. It has survived all the changes and challenges Asbury Park has with it's rich history. The second day I decided to throw a dollar in his bucket. And, as I walked away he stopped playing. He yelled to me "I like your dress!" I went back towards him and thanked him. I flexed my arm muscle and I said "It makes me feel strong". He said that is what they are meant for. And I said I know I have read about the embroidery of the women of Mexico and Guatemala. The conversation became legnthy and I knew I was going to be late to meet my son, and to see Michael Franti. But, I listened to him and even though we are very different, I enjoyed hearing what he had to say. The conclusion we drew from the conversation was "Everyone is an Artist". And, that is a statement I truly believe. We create our own lives. And, the more freedom we have to do so, the better. I am looking forward to October, as it is my birthday month. But, as it is approaching and I am filling in my calender. There are many of my best friends born in October. And, I would love to write a post about each one on their birthday. Celebrating each one and how their creativity has had an effect on me. It should be fun! I love to show some days (nothing special is happening), how I am celebrating the Artist in me and the Artist in you. I do this because I STILL can't call myself an Artist. Still makes me laugh. Someone said they have enjoyed the art I share on instagram this year and I laughed out loud. I said I have not really created anything this year (like I wanted). And she said your photos are great. And, I thought to myself, oh yeah photography is an art. So, I guess the battle of my mind still remains. But, one day I hope to find a style and something I really enjoy to leave on this earth. I am really happy I blog, so I am reminded how much of the arts I enjoy, share and create. Quote of the day: He who loves, flies, runs, and rejoices; he is free and nothing holds him back. ” -Henri Matisse Song of the day: What a wonderful World Joey Ramone

Sea Hear Now Day 2

I love music festivals, as it allows me to follow my heart. Do I want to feel trapped by having a great place to watch in front of the stage? Or do I want to stand back and enjoy all of the concert goers react to the music? This is a hard one to answer. But, seeing my son's band the Ocean Avenue Stompers made me enjoy the experience more then any other. I was really excited to be able to be at Sea Hear Now to see them play. And, when we were about to go by the Wooden Walls project it felt electric. With the artwork and architecture, and all the people it was really exciting. The city came alive. It made Asbury Park shine like the diamond it is. To follow a band on foot is genius. It makes you feel all the feels. Every sense is being used to the fullest. And, what I loved the most is I wasn't around the same people for five hours, like I was the day before. They would march and play a song and then stop. Naturally, the flow of people formed a circle. It was the most fun I have had watching them. I loved marching with them at the St. Patrick's Day parade, too. So, day 2 was amazing seeing The Head and the Heart and Michael Franti in the Transparent Gallery tent. And, then I made the choice of just taking pictures during the Green Day performance. To walk home after being on my feet for eight hours was challenging. But, with the ocean by my side and the sound of Green Day in the backround it was perfect. I knew I had a long and challenging week ahead of me at work. Tomorrow I will write about the artwork. Quote of the Day: Music has the power to bring people together like no other art form Michael Franti Song of the Day: So glad I found this from Saturday Night's sold out show: The Ocean Avenue Stomp at the Stone Pony After Show from Sea Hear Now performed by the Ocean Avenue Stompers Hey Pokey Way

Sounds of Life

This morning's sunrise looks astounding. It is warm, pleasant and the first day of Autumn. I am going to enjoy it to the fullest. I am off work and have no appointments or anything scheduled. I am sort of wishing I would go out and take pictures. But, to be able to see it from my bed is so darn comfortable. I would rather write. Today I am focusing on Michael Franti and the Spearheads. It was another intimate show in the Transparent Gallery tent. I was about fifteen minutes late. But, I walked in right as he put on his guitar to sing. During lockdown he was one of my favorite Artist's to catch up with. Because, he and his wife own a resort in Bali. And, as he put it they were stuck there. But, they were having the best time as a family making these great videos and celebrating each day in paradise. There are so many videos I could share of Michael Franti. His latest "Follow Your Heart" is my favorite. But, his songs make you feel. And, his performance I actually could see his emotions of love. To see love is one thing.....to hear love is another! That is why I am sharing the video "I'm alive". Because, when you see the videos I took in the tent, you will see, hear and FEEL the love. And, there is no other feeling I like to feel is LOVE. He also has a great song I did not video, I just enjoyed. It is "Today is a good day for a good day" I hope you all have the greatest day and enjoy it to the fullest! Peace and Love. Quote of the Day:“Don't let mistakes be so monumental, don't let your love be so confidential, don't let your mind be so darn judgemental, and please let your heart be more influential. Be thankful for all that the spirit provides and be thankful for all that you see without eyes.” -- Michael Franti Song of the Day: Michael Franti and the Spearheads I'm Alive (Life Sounds Like)

Every Shade of Blue

Day 2 at Sea Hear Now was so full of highlights. I swear I don't know where to begin, and how to put one over another. But, I think I will concentrate on the one group that excited me the most. On a personal level I am struggling to find the time to devote to my artwork. I can't say I am disappointed, because it is supposed to help me. But, going towards Sea Hear Now I took my brush out and painted. I like to listen to a song and just paint how I feel. I painted to the song "Every Shade of Blue". It is written by The Head and the Heart. My daughter saw them at the Firefly Music festival about ten years ago. I have been listening to them ever since. I really appreciate their music. This year they came out with this new album. And their history as a group is really interesting. Because, they were having a hard time after a band member had to leave the group. And, the husband of the female singer stepped in. They went to group therapy. It really worked because, this new album and tour this summer has been really successful. When I was home for a few minutes before leaving for day two of Sea Hear Now I noticed a couple of different people liked my story on instagram of me painting to the song. And, then I saw Head and the Heart had actually shared the story. 24 hours had gone by and I missed it!!! But, anyway I was able to see a very intimate show in the Transparent Gallery tent along with all of the art work of the different bands performing. They talked about thier art and getting into the flow. And, the first song they sang was "Every Shade of Blue". It ends up I know every word. Their song writing is very visual. I think I would love to do a stop motion video to their song "honeybee" which they performed at the evening performance. I will share the videos of each in my stories on instagram and facebook today. I was singing along to this song. My favorite line is " Promises made......sandcastles break......wave after wave." And, you will see at one point the singer looks at me with a big smile and we are singing to each other. He gave me a feeling I really needed. As a human and a artist I feel like I need to be heard. But, in order for anyone to understand how I am feeling I really feel the need to yell or scream at the top of my lungs. Because, maybe then I will really feel everyone would know what I am going through. But, my personality of trying to always control myself and not to act out on my feelings holds me back. But, the moment he makes eye contact with me.....I feel heard. Sounds a little wierd, but the person who did this has no idea how I feel. But, I put my phone away and just absorbed the rest of the show. Art is like that. No matter how you express yourself, there is something inside you that you want to be seen or heard. And, the end result is you want it to be noticed. But, if you are an introvert naturally, it becomes very complicated. But, anyway I was left very inspired to keep painting each day and record it. It is the healing I really need. Quote of the day: “Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life.” ― Pablo Picasso Song of the day: Every Shade of Blue The Head and the Heart

Sea Hear Now Day One

As I write this I am frustrated, as it is not going as planned. I can't upload pictures to my computer to include each day of Sea Hear Now. I wanted to feature each Artist with a quote and song that I heard at Sea Hear Now. So, I will try my best with what I have and share the pictures and songs in my stories on instagram and facebook. I was fortunate to get to the rail in the early evening. And, since I work on my feet all day, the last thing I wanted to do this weekend was stand a lot. So, there was two hours in between sets I was able to sit. I did already share my three favorite moments from day one. And, they were watching the sign language during Boy George's performance. Watching Danny Clinch jam with Dave Clark Jr. And, Stevie Nicks twirling at the end of her song Gypsy. Watching an Artist perform is like walking into an Art Gallery. They have the audience to express their feelings and voice with. When it is done freely, it is amazing how they can capture you and get your full attention. The best part is they can feel your appreciation, through you and the crowds reaction. It is an amazing experience. And, it makes you feel alive. Or, I could compare it to the feeling when you walk into a huge cathedral. I was there for a total of nine hours on day one. It was an amazing experience soaking up not just the sounds and art. But, to see my favorite building Convention Hall be the backdrop for it all, just felt so right. I spent my morning at writing class and a conversation came up about attending concerts. And, one person said he would like to write about conversations overheard at a concert. And, I thought to myself that would be great. As I walked through the casino building on the way there I overheard a girl say: "I hope they never take this building down". Spending so much time in Asbury Park with my store, I couldn't agree more. To think of the history of that town while I grew up, and what it is now is a miracle. A miracle I still love to participate in. Day one was SO much fun. Day two was multi-layered and I will have to do a post on each of one my three favorite experiences. Quote of the day: Everything on this record is what I really wanted to say, and I'm back to being the poet I always thought I was. Stevie Nicks Song of the Day: It's a Miracle Boy George Song written by Boy George on his LP Colour By Numbers It was written during his first visit to the United States. The original song words and title was "It's America"

Sound of Sunshine

I hope to post each day about Sea Hear Now. It is a wonderful event each year presented by Danny Clinch (the photographer for Bruce Springsteen, Pearl Jam and many others) He also plays the harmonica and will join in on stage with many of the performers. He also has a gallery of photographs in a studio gallery attached the Asbury Hotel. The Asbury Lanes hosted his 5th Anniversary and my son's fund raiser event where I saw him perform with my son! I have to do so many posts, because it is hard to find where to start on this mind blowing Sea Hear Now event. But, basically it is for the music. Wait, it has a lot of art. But, on a whole another level it is about surfing. Professional surfers come and surf all day and then are treated to the shows at night. Bottom line it is astounding how many talented people are involved. But, what I took out of it is.......we are all looking for our flow. Oh wait, there is yoga in the early morning which is free! So, today's post is just about how and who I saw that blew my mind. Each, day was totally a different experience. The amazing part of these festivals is how you rush from show to show. But, I made choices to just go with the flow. Most Artists had new music or chose covers of how they got through the isolation of the pandemic. And, I feel they all came through it in very different ways. My phone is giving me trouble (it goes dark, but I won't be fixing or buying a new one) But, I will try to find you tube videos to share in the meantime. I want to share pictures, but it is not uploading to them to the computer, either. Quote of the Day: “When you're younger, you think you're in competition with everyone. You think everyone's success is a threat to you, and this is a thing you grow out of. You get older and you suddenly realize the only person you're in competition with is yourself.” -- Boy George Song of the Day: It's A Miracle Boy George and the Culture Club

Like a White Winged Dove

I have such great memories of when Bamboozle (Foo Fighters Gaslight Anthem Bon Jovi) was in Asbury Park, and I had my store. I am really looking forward to the weekend with Sea Hear Now (Stevie Nicks and Green Day). I try to write down when I have radio karma (that is what I call it). But, strangely songs are played like a soundtrack to my life. Yesterday, was a good example I got into my car and Green Day came on. Then the best was when I driving home and entered Ocean Grove, the song from The Head and the Heart came on. It was Every Shade of Blue and I painted to that song in the morning and shared on facebook. This morning I am going to try to paint (with paint pens) a folk art dove, while listening to "Edge of Seventeen". This song was written by Stevie Nicks and was written after the death of John Lennon and the words about the white winged dove were taken from a menu while in Arizona. I love the stories that go along with her songwriting. I hope to hear a lot of good ones tonight! Quote of the day: “My generation fought very hard for feminism, and we fought very hard to not be labeled as you had to have a husband or you had to be in a relationship, or you were somehow not a cool chick.” Stevie Nicks Song of the Day: Green Day Good Riddance

The Rising

Last night as I drove back from Maryland, my drive and inner voice has finally become more hopeful. It could have been the Springsteen show I was listening to. It was a concert from 9/11/16 at Pittsburg, PA. He along with the E Street Band played the entire Rising albumn. There was a time I played that CD almost everyday as I drove back and forth to work at Boscov's. It is an extremely hopeful record. It brings you into the reality of missing people and places. But, then with the song "Waiting on a Sunny Day" you feel things will get better. When you drive a long distance to a concert it really helps. For as long as I was sitting and driving, he was singing and the crowd was reacting. It was one of the best sets I ever heard. I loved the sets from the 2016 shows, and was so glad I saw three of them. Including one of the longest shows on record. It was about the same legnth as my ride. When I started my ride it started with New York Serenade. I made a lot of decisions on what work I was going to do on my new home. And, decided to make an instagram reel with all the pictures I have been taking of sunrises. Spending the weekend with my grandson, and being around his young cousins, has left me hopeful. They bring me joy and it is a wonderful feeling to start the week with. We as a world again, are collectively full of grief for the loss of Queen Elizabeth and still coming out of the strange times of the Pandemic. But, as we rise this morning I hope we remember the hope in our hearts we felt on the twelth of September. When we flew our flags, and we knew we just had to get back to it. As the English would say after World War II. We must: Keep Calm and Carry On. Quote of the Day: Just like moons and like suns, With the certainty of tides, Just like hopes springing high, Still I'll rise. Maya Angelou Song of the Day: Into the Fire Bruce Springsteen

Farewell

I think one of the greatest lessons I have learned this past year is how not to be so sad saying goodbye. When we lose someone in our life it is sad, but with the loss comes a change. And, how we adapt to change is up to us each as individuals. I would say overall in my life, every ten years came with either a loss of a person or a devastional loss by nature or war. Since the millenium it started with 9/11, Sandy and then the pandemic. Each one effected a large area, not just me. But, personally I have had enormous loss since the pandemic. But, I did have a gigantic gain....my grandson. I am babysitting this weekend and I have him all to myself. His mom and dad are at a wedding in Virginia, and won't be back until tommorow. We watched the new movie Pinnochio by Disney last night. I was surprised by how attentive he was, and I love to hear how he pronounces Pinnochio and Geppeto. The visit by the blue fairy was of interest to me. And, of course, Jiminy Cricket being assigned to be be Pinnochio's conscience. I realize now the effect of the story and the cartoon had on me as a child. Pinnochio needed to be brave, truthful and unselfish to become a real boy. I am looking forward to our adventures today. He still loves to talk abouts ghosts and monsters. But, added this year are pirates and dinosaurs. I wrote down a story we made up talking to each other as he was going down for his afternoon nap yesterday. He is starting to wake up now, so I hope to get in a quote and song. Looking forward to making some insta stories with him today. Pictured is Paddington Bear at the station in London. It is with sadness to say goodbye to the reigning Queen of England. I don't watch the news, but I did see what was happening in politics in England the last month and it was pretty dreadful. Happy to see there is a new woman as Prime Minister. I am happy Harry is now a father to a prince and princess. And, I wish the royalty well, and hoping for a bright future for England. Quote of the day: Grief is the price we pay for love Queen Elizabeth Song of the Day: https://www.youtube.com/embed/QdpVxy7Mbeo Don't Let the Sun Go Down on Me Elton John