Listening to the Birds Sing

I go back and forth in my writing. I am taking a class on writing accountability. So, I am focused on what I envision of a book some day. But, then I lose out on daily journaling which helps me heal from loss. Last year I learned so much from creating something for 100 days straight. I focused on whatever I made to be blue and white. It was the closest I have ever gotten to who I am. Seeing my faults and embracing them. I was learning what I needed to go forward and not backwards. I was realizing I felt quite vulnerable and insecure. But, then I wanted to jump into something that made me feel vulnerable, instead of just being happy with myself. I realized I had a lot of empathy for others. And, I always thought it was a good trait. But, then I realized I was betraying myself by having too much empathy for others. So, with all that has happened to end my self discovery journey. I am back at it. And, it is much easier to focus on myself, when I am by myself. The goal for me during this time is to feel everything and not avoid all the bad feelings. So, as time goes by the good feelings are outweighing the bad feelings. And, I am going forward by being kind to myself. And, soaking in all the kindness others have shown me. I am grateful. Last night I decided to go to a Hallmark store. And, this may sound really wierd, but I looked at greeting cards and bought some for myself. I read and bought about ten cards that I really needed to hear the words spoken in the card. I have been following this Artist and she has accomplished what I was trying to accomplish. Last year I bought an Ipad and Procreate and wanted to start making affirmation art. Not just for myself, but I thought others would enjoy it too. Her Art and words are speaking softly and sweetly to me. I am really relating to her. And, so I went to the Hallmark website to read more about her. Her name is Morgan Harper Nichols and you can read about her here. And, what I found was how many times the word empathy was used. But, most of all she makes me feel brave. She has lived half as many years as me. But, I feel she is twice as much wiser than me. I admire her SO much! But, I am really getting excited to get my art supplies out and creating again! I would love to feel in June that I can pick up where I left off last year. I am super inspired by where I am working and living! I just hope this feeling continues and I can follow through with all I want to do. Quote of the day: "Choosing to have joy is not naively thinking everything will be easy it courageously believing that there is still hope, even when things get hard" Morgan Harper Nichols Song of the day: Dream Baby Dream Bruce Springsteen