Let the Good Times Roll

I was SO happy to end Fat Tuesday at the RBAR in Asbury Park last night. Growing up we did the fasting and ashes on Ash Wednesday, but we really didn't know what Mardi Gras were. My sister called right as I was walking in the door. And, she is three years older then me and she even asked what is Mardi Gras? But, Lent has been a deep soul searching time for me. Forty days to look back at my past and find better ways to be a better person. I have been praying to see the light and rise above a lot of chaos. I wanted to learn how to have more of a flow, and not react to negativity as much. I just wanted to learn to roll with life, as it was coming at me. Like, each wave coming ashore, whether the sea was fierce and angry or through calm waters. I just wanted to be able to adjust my sails, and ride the waves. Most of all, I think this time in my life, I have done all this work to adjusting to my new life alone, before Lent. It is really hard to adjust to a lifestyle you have never really had before. Growing up in a family, going to college, and raising a family I didn't really live on my own before. One of the best things that happened was a childhood friend came up from Georgia for a funeral with her husband. And, she texted me the morning after the divorce agreement was signed. I really needed someone to talk to that didn't know my total situation. And, she filled me with lots of stories of the me, she knew growing up. And, it was just what I needed. Last night the same thing happened as I talked to my sister until midnight. When, my friend came there was a spectacular moonrise. And, yesterday, even though it was said to be a cloudy day, there was a beautiful sunrise. For the first time in my life I am feeling awakened to this powerful feeling of faith. As if, this is exactly where I should be at this very moment. Right before my friend came up from Georgia, I saw my son Ian's stories on Instagram from Nashville. He said he loved a song. And, it was song my friend and I used to sing together when we would here it on the radio. I asked her if she remember it, and she sure did. Last night I heard that song, and it made me feel so young and care free. I also, saw in Instagram stories how they danced to that song. I am really proud of myself to getting out of my comfort zone of attending a Country Line dance class last week. I don't see me doing this(the dancing) in the future, but I love watching people having a good time. And, that is what last night was all about. I LOVE seeing my son have a good time with kindred spirits. I love to see the owner of RBAR who is a musician play music in a restarant he has created with a New Orleans theme. Asbury Park has given a lot of people opportunities to live out their dreams. I am thankful I am here to witness it. Quote of the Day: "There is always light for those who want to see it." Amanda Gorman Song of the Day: The Carpenters "Jumbalaya" Video of Casey (owner of Rbar) and my son singing Jumbalaya at Mardi Gras celebration at Rbar