Golden Years

When I first started writing a blog in 2009, it was about writing memories. It was for my children, to see how I thought and felt. But, when I opened my store it became about self discovery. It is still about that, now. But, I wanted it to be more about musical Artists and the ebbs and flows of their business. And, I find my life has ebbs and flows, but music can play a part in giving me a huge amount of faith. It heals my soul and spirit, so I can go through life better and not bitter. Yesterday was an excellent example. Writing comes with a lot of fear. Because, it is forever on a page. Last year I had some amazing experiences with orbs in my pictures. They happened when I least expected it, but when they were most needed. It was my birthday morning and two days before Christmas. I awoke with this tremenous feeling of anticipation. I couldn't wait to turn the handle of the my door to see a sunrise and meet the new day. And, then when I took pictures and saw the orbs, it scared the living daylight out of me. But, when I started thinking of my favorite Christmas movies, I realized how many were stories of spirits and ghosts. I started thinking of Charles Dickens and how brave he was to tell the story of three ghosts etc. So, during my time at New Years home for a week with covid, my negative and fearful side took over and I thought about it. I decided I am not brave enough to write about it. But, yesterday brought out that inner desire to write about it again. It was the third day off from work trying to do the same three things again, without a result. I won't bore you with the details, but I will give examples. One, is getting the title of my car, one is getting my car fixed under a warranty and the miles are over the warranty (but, I have been complaining about it 15,000 miles ago) Two, is looking for a house to buy in this ever crazy market, and three is getting a dentist appointment to get a crown with my new insurance. It is estimated to cost about $4,000. So, each day I am chipping away at this. Yesterday, on my way to work I decided to call Kia (about my car warranty) and try to get through to someone. The conversation was not good and did not end in my favor. But, I have saved all of my maintainance copies from last year and sent them when I got home and there is still HOPE! And, then my mind went racing. I just started thinking the same damn thing. These are supposed to be the good years, the good life. I am racing around like a maniac for three full days now and I can't finish one thing. I turned on the radio and what song and artist is playing? David Bowie and the song "Golden Years". Oh my God....I thought. Just the song I need to hear. Am I going to live long enough to really enjoy my golden years? And, then I realized he says ANGEL in this song. The song played until I arrived at the parking lot at work, and by the time I opened my car door I was calm. I believe my golden years are here and with me right now. Each morning as the sun rises my room is full of a golden glow and I hear the soothing sound of each wave coming ashore. I just have to take each day as they come, and just enjoy every moment. And, with each moment enjoyed comes the courage to go on. And, not just go on, but to find the courage to write AND share my discoveries with others. Quote of the day: "Gentleness clears the soul, love cleans the mind and makes it free.” David Bowie Song of the day: Golden Years David Bowies