Still Looking for Something

I am on to something.....and Disney got me here. So, I am going to try to express it in words by jumping to Jackson Browne. I don't know how this is go by putting it into words. But, I am going to try. With this blog I am trying to explain how listening to records can inspire and nurture us. I feel as I got older, the things I dreamed of have happened for me. I am content and happy with my life. Yes, I have had quite a few bumps in the road getting to here. And, this year I fell in the biggest pothole ever in the road, but I am climbing out. This morning was an unbelievable example. When I was going to write about Jackson Browne I was going to write how sad I would get listening to his records. Or, even when I have been watching his videos this year. I burst into tears with each word, sometimes. But, this morning was magnificent. The sun was rising behind my record player. I opened his new record "Downhill from Everywhere" and I put the needle on the song: "Still Looking for Something". I took out my iphone and started taking pictures and videos. It was magic. I had not heard the song before. But, as I took the video the words of the song said : "I am out here under the streetlight" and that is exactly what I am seeing out my window. So, I have these ideas how I want to use my pictures of the sunrise with my instagram and then later as the pictures for the book. It all came together during the song. And, the words were so so so meaningful. Especially, the last line: I'm still looking for something I'm out here under the streetlight, baby, I'm Still looking for something in the night I might be giving up something You don't get something for nothing, baby Nothing you can hold up to the light If all I find is freedom, it's alright And I knew since I was just little The sharp edges of the world will whittle Your dreams down to shavings at your feet Gonna do my best not to settle I know it's gonna test my mettle Keep my options open, even so I'm hoping And I'm still looking for something Way out over my due date, baby, I'm Still looking for something in the night I know I'm headed for somewhere We all dream about somewhere, baby We all want to go where life is bright You don't want to end up nowhere, but you might And I knew since I was just little The sharp edges of the world will whittle Your expectations into something else And I know beyond the tough titty Somewhere there's a heart in the city And I'm out here to find it and the soulful smile behind it I'm still looking for something I'm out here under the neon, baby Still looking for something in the night I don't mind giving up something You don't get something for nothing, baby You don't give up on love without a fight If I don't find it this time, it's alright Gonna keep my options open, even though I'm hoping For something I can hold up to the light Don't know that I'll find it, or the soulful smile behind it If all I find is freedom, it's alright This album is a double album and I highly recommend it. I love every song. I love the title. I think some of his songs are so sad, but uplifting at the same time. I relistened to "Fountain of Sorrow" the other day and relized that song, even with the title, makes me happy. But, I have to say "Rock Me On the Water" from his first album made me cry. But, this is what I do to get through all of this. It is sort of mindfulness or meditative for me. It makes me feel all my feelings and not avoid them. And, really all I want to know in life is that "it's alright". It may be downhill from everywhere, but IT'S ALRIGHT! Quote of the Day: Jackson Browne from the song Still Looking for Something: "Don't know that I'll find it, or the soulful smile behind it. If all I find is freedom, it's alright. Song of the Day: Jackson Browne "Fountain of Sorrow"